Daily Battles

Another piece revisited that was written when my most recent depression was at its worst.


Edges of my soul

Feel raw

Ragged

Torn roughly

Thoughtlessly

Like junk mail on recycling day

 

There are moments

Longing

Wanting

Undefined hunger

Are piercing arrows

Penetrating my heart

Expanding on contact

Removal threatening hemorrhage

 

Loneliness

Isolation

Disconnection

Heavy, thick

Like amber honey

Coating surfaces

Seeping into crevices

Sticky

Trapping me in my own chaotic head

No comfort here

 

Awkward

Inexperienced

At seeking sanctuary

Stubborn, prickly pride

More sharp edges than a porcupine

Used to going it alone

Convinced this burden is mine to bear alone

 

The weight  of this depression

Bends my back

Buckles my knees

I fight to keep standing

Harden the steel in my spine

Call on the fire in my belly

Marshall my troops

But I am so very tired

Weary to my core

 

I must take respite for a moment

Before picking myself up

To continue this war

14 thoughts on “Daily Battles

  1. “Coating surfaces
    Seeping into crevices
    Sticky
    Trapping me in my own chaotic head” I connected with these lines viscerallyI have always struggled to articulate what it feels like to be in the pits of depression. Words always seem mundane or ineffectual but you captured the throes of mental anguish in a delicate, artful way. Beautiful!

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  2. OMG!!! Fantastic!!!…. It’s terrible that some of our best work comes out when we are tormented inside…… writing i love as i also love to paint, but can only paint when i am going through the ringer…. and when i look back on my work…. I’m most always in awe…… it’s kinda like, from the burnt ashes come out a beautiful bright-phoenix …. sorry if this sounds so cliché.

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