darkness has descended again
the fall has been a white-gripped
drop on a rollercoaster
my unraveling
my disintegration
rapid
terrifying
there is little comfort
other than that found
wrapped in strong arms
bare skin to bare skin
relaxed breath synchronized
kinetic thoughts stilled
to manageable speed
rest of the world
held at bay
for precious moments
i am a faithful woman
my body shared
with only one lover
but there are many ways
to love
to give of myself
i am always freer
with my heart
than my body
as I fragment
lose structural integrity
devolve into primordial ooze
i wonder if others that I have
given pieces of my heart to
remember me
remember who i once was
can hand me strands
of my mitochondrial dna
my starved cells can engulf
can replicate
building blocks
for wholeness
entrusted to the safekeeping
of others
© 2017 Christine Elizabeth Ray – All rights Reserved
Brave & Reckless 
Reblogged this on Sudden Denouement Literary Collective and commented:
Our fearless leader. Thank you Christine for your kindness and leaderahip.
JasperKerkau
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I had to stop halfway through reading this to remind myself to breathe. You’ve crawled under my skin with this one Christine, and you’re welcome to make yourself at home. Raw and beautiful.
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Thank you so much Nikki! It was actually so raw and in the moment that I sat on it for two weeks before publishing it.
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I am so pleased that you decided to publish, it’s amazing.
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I find so many personal themes of myself in this. Things I have written about the way I deal with some of the emotional difficulties I have. I really appreciate this vision, Christine. Well done!
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Thank you– this contains a lot of hard truth.
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But also a degree of hope in the acknowledgement, I believe.
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I do have a sense that these pieces of me are safely entrusted
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This is absolutely brilliant.
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Thank you! I am pretty excited about your work and am disappointed that I need to go to bed instead of reading more tonight.
You need to meet S Francis at SailorPoet https://sailorpoet.com/ and Davy at https://davydblog.com/2017/05/04/hanging-out-at-the-go-dog-go-treetop-cafe/
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Thank you for the compliment. I am amazed by your poems as well. I was planning on taking some time away from writing to focus on personal matters, but you’re inspiring me to make this break as short as possible. 🙂
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I will definitely look forward to your return. I am still so excited that you used the word mitachondria in a poem!
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I will be checking out your fellow poets soon. And to you, I recommend my good friend trE. https://simplesoulsister.com/
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Very excited for the recommendation. I always wish I had more time time to explore, read, and write.
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Same here. I’m always impressed by other bloggers’ ability to do these things while remaining present in their personal lives. It’s always been a difficult balance for me.
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