Elephants and fathers

Sometimes I am really good at ignoring

the elephant in the room

but this one has started trumpeting

looking baleful

and shooting peanuts at me

in an effort to get my attention

I think I even heard it mutter, “Bitch, please!” under its breath

So, did I ever mention that my father disappeared

off the face of the earth

when I was ten

and has never been heard from again?

there was an FBI investigation and everything

which is retrospect, probably had more to do

with his criminal activities

than genuine concern about his welfare

but let’s not go there

So you being gone for 12 days with no word

Feels familiar

Feels like abandonment

Feels like loss

Feels like mourning

Guess I should have told you that story


© 2017 Christine Elizabeth Ray – All rights Reserved


      1. Oh I’m glad. I have to tell you that this touched me so much. I’m missing someone and it hit me just how much, as I read this. Can I ask how long they were missing?


  1. “Bitch, please!” I laughed at this…but that description was awesome. I’m glad your friend returned. I am so sorry about your father and those circumstances. That must have been very hard for you. This made me think of so many elephants in my life that are calling for attention. This resonated with me very much. Thank you for sharing it.


  2. I felt that same rush of absence and sometimes it comes to me in in bits and pieces of downcast eyes and unshared laughs. Thank you for your bravery. Thank you for the power of your words.💗


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