Thinking today of Chester Bennington and Chris Cornell and Robin Williams and all of those whose lives have been lost to depression and suicide but did not make the headlines or the social media news feeds. I have walked in your shoes. I have put my leg over the bridge, stood at the open 13th story window and considered walking out, have thought I was nothing, thought that others would be better off without me. Those are the lies depression tells us. You mattered. You are missed.
Inspired by Phases by Kevin Kantor & Sienna Burnett
the suicide note
she did not leave
left a faint imprint
on the wooden table
where they would sit and talk
over cups of milky coffee
the suicide note
she did not leave
rang like silence in his ears
the suicide note
she did not leave
burned itself onto his retinas
he feared the afterimage
was permanent
the suicide note
she did not leave
did not list
13 reasons why
he understood only
that the starless darkness
she was drowning in
had become so thick
so viscous
so acidic
that it had eaten all light
and she could no longer see
how he glowed
whenever she was near
© 2017 Christine Elizabeth Ray – All rights Reserved
© Revised 2018 Christine Elizabeth Ray – All rights Reserved
I can’t find words for this other than Truth.
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Thank you Bob. It was important for me to honor these losses
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Reblogged this on cabbagesandkings524 and commented:
Christine Ray writes truths of suicide both for those who do and those left behind.
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❤
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Christine this spoke to me in more ways than one. I have been through this phase and can totally relate to it.
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I’m sorry that you have lived through this but honored if I spoke truth
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Reblogged this on Megha's World and commented:
Depression is not a state of mind..its a disease. Get help.
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❤
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Reblogged this on The Militant Negro™.
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Thank you for the kind reblog
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Wow. Very well done. Powerfully deep.
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Thank you so much.
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This has tugged at my heart. Thank you for this.
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You are most welcome
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So many holes left in our world. It would be nice to get to a place where we don’t have to mourn losses like this. ❤
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Each one breaks my heart a little. Your comment makes me think about the way light looks through pinprick holes on black paper for some reason. It is a sad but beautiful image.
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I suppose it is, yes. Goodnight, Lady. ❤
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❤
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Правда. Сколько бы они могли создать прекрасного…
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Это потеря для мира
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Reblogged this on A Global Divergent Literary Collective and commented:
Christine Ray
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Re-blogged. misterkaki.
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Thank you Jonathan– that is very kind
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Reblogged this on misterkaki.
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Reblogged this on Liz McLeod Musings on the Day and commented:
Peace to all these…
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Thank you Liz
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Reblogged this on RamJet Poetry.
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❤
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incredible work C
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Thank you OP– you know how deeply I feel about this.
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🙏
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A lifetime of haunting is thus transferred.
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Sadly yes
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oh my gosh, this brought tears to my heart 💔🖤🌸
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Thank you Vanessa!
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Sigh, the timing. My husband officiated at a funeral for someone who took his life before Christmas. It was very difficult for him. It was the saddest funeral he has done in a long time.
This was beautifully written ❤
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I am so sorry Vanessa. There is so little comfort to offer loved ones devastated by a suicide. So much guilt and anger and sadness.
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thanks Christine!
It is, indeed, so complex!
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This one speaks volumes.
Dwight
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Thank you Dwight.
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You are welcome!
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Reblogged this on erichmichaels and commented:
I lost a couple friends to Suicide, so braveandreckless’ “Unwritten,” resonates deeply.
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I am honored by the reblog
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Christine-Thank you for this. Suicide and depression have affected people in my life as well. Suicide is a permanent solution to a fixable problem (even though it may not seem that way). Help is out there.
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It is so important that we speak openly about depression and suicide. We cannot lose more to this killer.
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