Living with Invisible Illness: Lost Key


the transformation

was so slow

so gradual

that i was unaware

that bones had turned glass

joints brass clockwork

until they seized

from lack of lubrication

made me stumble gracelessly

onto cracked tiles

hands once strong


now tremble

fail to grasp

fail to open

jars and tubs

of balms

of potions

that clutter dresser top

displacing brushes

jewelry with delicate clasps

making empty promises

to ease aches


i now wind down

an underpowered automaton

dust a fine coating on pale skin

words once nimble on my tongue

swim in and out of view

bright as koi

frustratingly elusive

in brain rendered too sluggish

too viscous

to gather them

in silver butterfly nets

and set them free


Image courtesy on Pinterest

© 2018 Christine Elizabeth Ray – All rights Reserved



  1. Your imagery is stunning and so real all at once. My mother suffers with a spinal condition people cannot see and it is the lack of understanding which often frustrates her more than the pain, I’m going to share this with her. ❤


    1. It has been a very humbling situation where I have had to completely stop my life as I knew it and begin listening to my body. If you look “normal” or “normal enough”, people simply can’t understand how much simple tasks take out of you or that today I could do four loads of laundry but tomorrow I may barely be able to be out of bed. I also have osteoarthritis in spine and chronic pain just weighs on your spirit. Please give her my regards.

      Liked by 1 person

      1. I definitely cannot write as easily or as consistently as I used to. I have fewer hours available to me where I am at my sharpest. I am trying to have a sense of humor about it, but its tough. Fortunately my family is really patient with me on really bad days


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s