In Honor of World Suicide Prevention Day

You ask why
as if there is
some answer
that could satisfy us
that would make us
nod heads
in collective agreement
Yes, we would say wisely
he should have taken his life
Yes, she deserved to be a statistic

Ask instead
how much pain
a human being
has endured
to choose dying
over existing?
Ask how low
can sink
before sincerely
believing that
would be better off
without him?
How dark
how poisoned
must the air
surrounding her
to choose
to stop

I have stood at
the edge of the abyss
weariness an ache
deep in my bones
trapped deep and
alone in my head
believing that there
was only one way
to be freed
from sticky black
churning tides of guilt
thick clouds of desperation
that blinded my eyes
choked my lungs
permeated my thoughts
I do not need
to ask why?

I ache to know
that another sister
another brother
another life
has been lost
no memorials
for me to lay a wreath
of golden roses
no candles to light
no hands to hold
in this heartbreaking war

© 2017 Christine Elizabeth Ray – All Rights Reserved

Revised  © 2019 Christine Elizabeth Ray – All Rights Reserved

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