i should
brand myself
a failure
for failing to meet
of those
who wear
white coats
shiny stethoscopes
draped casually
around necks
I should let
their stern eyes
their nonverbal—
but surprisingly loud—
condemnation of
my parenting
echo through my mind
but right now
I am just
too fatigued
just too
damn tired
to bathe
in their judgement
wallow in expected
too worn
from chronic illness
chronic pain
that tightly fitted
jumpsuit of
hair and barbed
for that

© 2021 Christine Elizabeth Ray – All Rights Reserved

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