An Emotionless Affair- Kindra M. Austin

Kindra M. Austin on Blood Into Ink

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What you think you know of me, you’ve gleaned from pages of a yellow legal pad stained with sterile ink leaked from your doctor’s pen; it’s an emotionless affair, the goings-on between patient (me) and psychiatrist. I’m a mistress in hysterics seeking validation from just another goddamned man. If this were the nineteenth century, you’d have long sent me to an asylum, and had my womb mutilated by staff surgeons.

When I speak, you scribble, and I imagine you’re only illustrating me naked, sprawled upon the divan, jaundice skinned and lined with blue. Make me a whole person, you write (mocking me) inside a comic book word bubble inserted above my head. But I continue talking about how I feel since learning my mother had woken up dead, and the gut-fucking grief inside of me, because I do want to be a whole person.

It’s an emotionless affair…

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There is still time to submit your writing to the Blood Into Ink Writing Contest!

In order to give people a little more time to submit writing during the busy holiday season, the curators of Blood Into Ink have extended the contest submission deadline to Sunday, December 10th.

Blood Into Ink, a safe space for survivors of trauma/abuse, has been deeply moved by the national embrace of the #MeToo Campaign. #MeToo has provided a way for women and men to tell their truths about their experiences with sexual assault and/or harassment in a way that feels comfortable to them. We believe that breaking the silence and telling these stories matters. To honor this campaign, Blood Into Ink is holding a #MeToo Writing Contest to recruit new writers for the Collective.  We welcome submissions about all forms of trauma: child abuse, domestic violence, sexual assault, natural disaster, addiction, mental health, etc.– whatever you have survived that has shaped you.

Prompt: #MeToo

Formats accepted: Poem, prose, fiction, essay, spoken word or video*

More than 50 words; Less than 750

Prizes:

1st place Membership as a Curator in the Blood Into Ink Collective.  The winning entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

2nd place Status as a Guest Contributor in the Blood Into Ink Collective.  The second place entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

3rd place The third place entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

Additional worthy submissions may be published on Blood Into Ink at the discretion of the Curators

Submissions Accepted: 11/1/2017 through 12/10/2017

  • Send up to 3 pieces of original writing in either PDF or Word document attached to an email that includes your real name as well as the name you publish your writing under. Although we prefer previously unpublished work, we will consider published work as long as it has ONLY been published on a blog. You must own the rights to any work you submit to Blood Into Ink
  • Include a brief biography that includes a link to your website/social media site where readers can go to read more of your writing if applicable.
  • Please attach a suggested image for each piece of writing that you submit
  • Send your submissions to: bloodintoink2017@gmail.com by midnight on Sunday, December 10, 2017

Finalists will be contacted by Blood Into Ink no later than January 15, 2018.

*Audio and video pieces should be accompanied by a text version of the piece.

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Tarot

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it took time

to reach the dusty crossroads

but only a moment

to sell my soul to The Devil

a willing sacrifice

sign the legally binding documents

in thin purple Sharpie

I swallowed my qualms like raw oysters

briny

slick

as I gagged them down my throat

ate my pride sliced

on gluten free crackers

followed by

chilled Riesling

crisp with green apple

minerals

to get it down

naively believing

this would make me happy

repair what had broken

heal the shame

guilt

etched onto my palms

told myself

this time could be different

would be different

convinced myself

that I had misread the Tarot

no true High Priestess dispensing Justice

time to embrace Temperance

so easy

to chain myself on the Wheel of Fortune

accept Judgement that I was over-sensitive

too emotional

untrusting

finding out I that I was right the first time

should be more satisfying

how much…

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Blood Into Ink Writing Contest: Deadline Extended until Friday, December 10th

In order to give people a little more time to submit writing during the busy holiday season, the curators of Blood Into Ink have extended the contest submission deadline to Sunday, December 10th.

Blood Into Ink, a safe space for survivors of trauma/abuse, has been deeply moved by the national embrace of the #MeToo Campaign. #MeToo has provided a way for women and men to tell their truths about their experiences with sexual assault and/or harassment in a way that feels comfortable to them. We believe that breaking the silence and telling these stories matters. To honor this campaign, Blood Into Ink is holding a #MeToo Writing Contest to recruit new writers for the Collective.  We welcome submissions about all forms of trauma: child abuse, domestic violence, sexual assault, natural disaster, addiction, mental health, etc.– whatever you have survived that has shaped you.

Prompt: #MeToo

Formats accepted: Poem, prose, fiction, essay, spoken word or video*

More than 50 words; Less than 750

Prizes:

1st place Membership as a Curator in the Blood Into Ink Collective.  The winning entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

2nd place Status as a Guest Contributor in the Blood Into Ink Collective.  The second place entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

3rd place The third place entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

Additional worthy submissions may be published on Blood Into Ink at the discretion of the Curators

Submissions Accepted: 11/1/2017 through 12/10/2017

  • Send up to 3 pieces of original writing in either PDF or Word document attached to an email that includes your real name as well as the name you publish your writing under. Although we prefer previously unpublished work, we will consider published work as long as it has ONLY been published on a blog. You must own the rights to any work you submit to Blood Into Ink
  • Include a brief biography that includes a link to your website/social media site where readers can go to read more of your writing if applicable.
  • Please attach a suggested image for each piece of writing that you submit
  • Send your submissions to: bloodintoink2017@gmail.com by midnight on Sunday, December 10, 2017

Finalists will be contacted by Blood Into Ink no later than January 15, 2018.

*Audio and video pieces should be accompanied by a text version of the piece.

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My Sins

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I wear my sins openly

black ink tattoos

scrolled over arms

legs

stomach

back

history of the girl I was

the woman I became

I do not lower my eyes

in shame

deference

to your delicate sensibilities

I meet

your questions

judgements

head on

you are not my god

not my priest

the fate of my soul

has never rested

in your hands

keep your pebbles

your stones

away from my house

this sacred temple

I have shattered more than once

re-glued my pieces back together

fractured mosaic of

glass

mirror

copper

steel

do not rest your eyes long

in direct sun

or by full moon

I hear the light

can be blinding

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© 2017 Christine Elizabeth Ray – All rights Reserved

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Gems

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Sharp edged truths

crystallize in my throat

cut me on faceted edges

as I swallow them hard

with a shot of whiskey

laugh huskily at the irony

of gagging on riches

I long to spit these blood diamonds

Rubies

emeralds

into cupped hands

witness the polish they bear

from fire that simmers in my belly

fed on the dry kindling

of a lifetime of suppressed grief

rage

passion

a reckless surgeon

I will slice open my gut

with scalpel

extract them one by one

listen to them ring

as they hit stainless bowl

before stitching myself back up

with thick black thread

Perhaps I will use these gems to buy freedom

from the heavy shackles of memory

expectation

that chafe at wrists

ankles

raw heart

finally unencumbered

I will walk again barefoot

on crisp leaves

a crown of woven branches

and scarlet flowers upon my head

© 2017 Christine Elizabeth…

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Blood Into Ink Writing Contest

Blood Into Ink, a safe space for survivors of trauma/abuse, has been deeply moved by the national embrace of the #MeToo Campaign. #MeToo has provided a way for women and men to tell their truths about their experiences with sexual assault and/or harassment in a way that feels comfortable to them. We believe that breaking the silence and telling these stories matters. To honor this campaign, Blood Into Ink is holding a #MeToo Writing Contest to recruit new writers for the Collective.  We welcome submissions about all forms of trauma: child abuse, domestic violence, sexual assault, natural disaster, addiction, mental health, etc.– whatever you have survived that has shaped you.

Prompt: #MeToo

Formats accepted: Poem, prose, fiction, essay, spoken word or video*

More than 50 words; Less than 750

Prizes:

1st place Membership as a Curator in the Blood Into Ink Collective.  The winning entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

2nd place Status as a Guest Contributor in the Blood Into Ink Collective.  The second place entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

3rd place The third place entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

Additional worthy submissions may be published on Blood Into Ink at the discretion of the Curators

Submissions Accepted: 11/1/2017 through 11/30/2017

  • Send up to 3 pieces of original writing in either PDF or Word document attached to an email that includes your real name as well as the name you publish your writing under. Although we prefer previously unpublished work, we will consider published work as long as it has ONLY been published on a blog. You must own the rights to any work you submit to Blood Into Ink
  • Include a brief biography that includes a link to your website/social media site where readers can go to read more of your writing if applicable.
  • Please attach a suggested image for each piece of writing that you submit
  • Send your submissions to: bloodintoink2017@gmail.com by midnight on November 30, 2017

Finalists will be contacted by Blood Into Ink no later than December 30, 2017.

*Audio and video pieces should be accompanied by a text version of the piece.

 

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Young Wolf

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politics

sunk our adult friendship

my insistence

black lives matter

collided against

your thin blue line

shower of defensive red sparks

yet you still cross my mind

I remember

15 year old boy

dirty blond hair

spilling over one blue eye

snaggle-tooth smile

crushing hard on another girl

on our island of misfit toys

can’t remember when

ground started to shift

on tectonic plates

pushing us onto the same continent

until we were stealing first kisses

in blue twilight

mosquitoes feasting on our legs

seamless transition

from you + I

to us

your hackles raised

police dog on alert

every time he was near

didn’t need to tell you

you instinctively knew

something was wrong

the way he looked at me

talked to me

baited me

punished me

for my rage-filled self-emancipation

in my tweens

sometimes I would still fold up

an origami fortress

after he was gone

a lesser…

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Blood Into Ink Writing Contest

Blood Into Ink, a safe space for survivors of trauma/abuse, has been deeply moved by the national embrace of the #MeToo Campaign. #MeToo has provided a way for women and men to tell their truths about their experiences with sexual assault and/or harassment in a way that feels comfortable to them. We believe that breaking the silence and telling these stories matters. To honor this campaign, Blood Into Ink is holding a #MeToo Writing Contest to recruit new writers for the Collective.  We welcome submissions about all forms of trauma: child abuse, domestic violence, sexual assault, natural disaster, addiction, mental health, etc.– whatever you have survived that has shaped you.

Prompt: #MeToo

Formats accepted: Poem, prose, fiction, essay, spoken word or video*

More than 50 words; Less than 750

Prizes:

1st place Membership as a Curator in the Blood Into Ink Collective.  The winning entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

2nd place Status as a Guest Contributor in the Blood Into Ink Collective.  The second place entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

3rd place The third place entry will be published on Blood Into Ink and Whisper and the Roar.

Additional worthy submissions may be published on Blood Into Ink at the discretion of the Curators

Submissions Accepted: 11/1/2017 through 11/30/2017

  • Send up to 3 pieces of original writing in either PDF or Word document attached to an email that includes your real name as well as the name you publish your writing under. Although we prefer previously unpublished work, we will consider published work as long as it has ONLY been published on a blog. You must own the rights to any work you submit to Blood Into Ink
  • Include a brief biography that includes a link to your website/social media site where readers can go to read more of your writing if applicable.
  • Please attach a suggested image for each piece of writing that you submit
  • Send your submissions to: bloodintoink2017@gmail.com by midnight on November 30, 2017

Finalists will be contacted by Blood Into Ink no later than December 30, 2017.

*Audio and video pieces should be accompanied by a text version of the piece.

 

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