words some days my savior some days my hell dissolve into fragmented syllables lonely letters that I cannot reassemble back into meaningful wholes I lie tell myself I will grow accustomed to this silence these padded walls © 2018 Christine Elizabeth Ray – All Rights Reserved
Isolation
I Am the Sorrow
some days I do not just feel sorrow some days I am the sorrow I am the grey sky that threatens spitting snow I am the heaviness in your limbs your shuffling gait reluctant to get where you are expected some days I am the sorrow the stark, leafless, skeletal branches of the trees dwelling … Continue reading I Am the Sorrow
Here I Stand – Christine E. Ray
This autobiographical fragment from my first year of grad school in the early 1990s may be triggering for some readers. It frankly addresses suicidal ideation. I stand in front of the open window of my one bedroom apartment in my building which is simply named “Graduate Tower B.” The building is as generic, as bland, … Continue reading Here I Stand – Christine E. Ray
On Becoming a Poet
Originally published by the Sudden Denouement Literary Collective sometimes, adopting the names ‘writer’ and ‘poet’ led her to encounters with the most amazing minds connecting her with a larger community at other times she thought that ‘writer’ and ‘poet’ were the loneliest names she had ever called herself waking up every morning to unzip her … Continue reading On Becoming a Poet
When I am Small – Christine E. Ray
cold small half pain half numb compressed in on myself until I am hard light cocooned in the strait jacket I spun will you enfold me in strong arms? draw me up into your body’s warmth? remind me how to breathe? guide my muscles my bones back into the shape of a woman? © 2017 … Continue reading When I am Small – Christine E. Ray
Dissolution – Christine E. Ray
words some days my savior some days my hell dissolve into fragmented syllables and lonely letters that I cannot reassemble back into meaningful wholes I tell myself I will grow accustomed to this silence these padded walls © 2018 Christine Elizabeth Ray – All Rights Reserved