some days I do not just feel sorrow some days I am the sorrow I am the grey sky that threatens spitting snow I am the heaviness in your limbs your shuffling gait reluctant to get where you are expected some days I am the sorrow the stark, leafless, skeletal branches of the trees dwelling … Continue reading I Am the Sorrow
loneliness
Here I Stand – Christine E. Ray
This autobiographical fragment from my first year of grad school in the early 1990s may be triggering for some readers. It frankly addresses suicidal ideation. I stand in front of the open window of my one bedroom apartment in my building which is simply named “Graduate Tower B.” The building is as generic, as bland, … Continue reading Here I Stand – Christine E. Ray
I Am the Sorrow
some days I do not just feel sorrow some days I am the sorrow I am the grey sky that threatens spitting snow I am the heaviness in your limbs your shuffling gait reluctant to get where you are expected some days I am the sorrow the stark, leafless, skeletal branches of the trees dwelling … Continue reading I Am the Sorrow
I Am the Sorrow
some days I do not just feel sorrow some days I am the sorrow I am the grey sky that threatens spitting snow I am the heaviness in your limbs your shuffling gait reluctant to get where you are expected some days I am the sorrow the stark, leafless, skeletal branches of the trees dwelling … Continue reading I Am the Sorrow
Vulnerability
it is a stretch for me to reach out across this shifting distance this shaky ground hand extended toward you a journey across a deep chasm for me to say aloud even in a whisper I need I want I do not like to need to want to admit any vulnerability any Achilles heel my rigid armor … Continue reading Vulnerability
Insubstantial
I can feel the fading as color washes out of me I grow transparent insubstantial my feet no longer make contact with the ground I open my mouth to speak there is no sound a barely breathing ghost who has lost gravity I slide right through you no impression made barely stirring the air © … Continue reading Insubstantial